Feeling deflated! 

For the past couple of days I have been finding it hard to be my normal, bubbly, excited and happy self. 

No matter what I try to do to perk myself up I just feel run down, unhappy and beaten by life.

It’s like this gloomy cloud that is just hanging over me and the little things that don’t bother me normally or I can usually brush off and forget about are actually starting to bother and get to me.

For example yesterday as I was watching Baby and her sister playing happily in the park together.

  

Baby was thrilled to finally be getting the chance to try something other then the swings. she was truly loving the freedom. 

As I watched them play I started thinking about how often we are going to be able to go to park now the weather is nicer and about when I use to take E when she was Baby’s age and watch her run around and climb the climbing frame and go down the slide. Then I started to think about how long it’s going to be before Baby will be able to do that.

It was then my chest started to tighten and my heart ached because I finally noticed and realised that Baby wasn’t walking yet. All of her little friends at playgroup are toddling and she has just started to master standing and a bit of cruising. 

At that moment I saw a family with a child younger then Baby and he was running in front of his parents into the park. I nearly broke down in tears right in the middle of the park because I finally starting to see her learning delays. 

I always knew it takes children with DS that little bit longer to learn new thing and they don’t just pick things up and Baby has been so amazing at learning things quickly and has been hitting all her milestones that I just never really noticed a difference between her and other children her age. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is that first realisation can as a shock. It knocked me for six and it has had me worrying and brought back a load of fears and emotions I thought I had already dealt with. 

And it has left me feeling really deflated! 

Nikki x 

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Word of the Week – Excitment

Hello 

As most of you can see my word for this week if rather self explaitory. I am excited, thrilled, elated, but not many people will actually know why. 

You see for me this week has been a real rollercoaster. It’s had its ups, it’s downs, it’s turns and it’s loop de loops. It has been a crazy week and not all of it has been good! But I’m not going to get into any of that because this week has also been the run up to something else for me and my family. 



This week, it is our second wedding anniversary. Hubby and I have been married 2 years on Sunday! I have been so excited that I have been counting down the days in my head just waiting for the weekend to come, because I knew the hubby had booked a long weekend off work and we could all be together has a family. I couldn’t wait!

On our actual anniversary day, itself we don’t really have anything special planned for us to celebrate. P has a friends birthday party to go to and the family has been invited to another party for a family friend. It’s great because the second party is really close by to where P’s friends party is and it starts a little bit later, meaning P can go to both.

So even though we won’t be on a nice romantic meal in a restaurant or doing anything for us through day, It won’t matter because we will be together.

 Plus that night the hubby and I have a “date night” 

Style meal planned for just us, once the kids are all in bed.

What more could I ask for really. 

There are also a few other plans for the beginning of the weekend but you will have to keep and eye out for future blog post to find them out or add me on some of my social media channels.

How has your week been? 

Nikki x

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New

This week my word is New. 

Mainly because I have been having to deal with the new update in the wordpress app. The change has thrown me a like and is taking a while to get use to but I think I am getting there.

Also if you haven’t noticed over the last week I have changed all my blog design and I have tried playing with things and added new stuff. I am actually really pleased with the way my blog is looking now and pleased with myself for sitting down and doing it with out getting to overly stressed.

My other new thing is the fact that I am going to my first properly blogging event in April because I got my ticket and booked my train to the Tots100 blog camp in Birmingham. I can’t wait and I even did a *Happy Dance* today. Much to my hubby’s dismay. 

(A happy dance consits of me jumping around squealing or giggling like a school girl, while I attempt to “bust some moves”)

As it is going to be my first blog event, it’s safe to say it’s going to be a new experience for me. One I am extremely excited for but also a little nervous and anxious about because I will finally be meeting the people behind their amazing blogs, that I have only ever talked to from behind my screen. I still can’t wait though and I hope April hurrys up because I’m extremely giddy!

So yeah there you go that is my word for the week 

NEW!

What is yours?

Nikki x 

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Annoying

My week as been extremely annoying.
Not because of anything anyone has done but because I haven’t been able to hear properly for over a week now, due to a very annoying ear infection.

Soon as I lost the hearing in my right ear I knew what it was and I really didn’t want to have to go to doctors because I don’t ever have time and I’m now out of my 1 year free prescription exemption for maternity.
So I looked online and read the NHS direct website that states that an ear infection “should” clear up by its self within 3-5 days.
As always though this wasn’t the case for me and by day 4 the pain really started to take hold. Add that to the constant “pardons” I was saying as I could barely hear anything anyone was saying. I was very annoyed.

So after waiting patiently for a full 5 days I knew my ear infection wasn’t going anywhere and I would have to given in and call my doctors. Which is annoying in its self because it can take on average of a 100 calls to be able to get through to the reception and try to get an appointment on a morning.
That day was no different and once I managed to get through I was told there was no appointments left but I could get a doctor to call me later on in day.

This isn’t a very good option as I was barely able to hear to talk on the phone. I actually missed the first call from doctor because I didn’t hear my phone.

Luckily I noticed a miss called and got when I called back they agreed to have him call me again. When the doctor ring back and I was eventually able to speak to someone that was willing to listening to my symptoms properly. I was to seen at 5.30pm that evening.

You will never guess what the doctor said after she looked in my ear. Yep! You guessed it I had a middle ear infection and I would need antibiotics.

I left the doctors feeling really annoyed but I went and got my prescription and decided I would start the week course the next morning. That way I could enjoy a large glass of red wine and fall into bed. I was totally exhausted and was really really run down and exhausted.

I can now say after 2 days of taking antibiotics, my hearing hasn’t returned yet but my head doesn’t feel like it heavier on one side, my balance is returning to normal and I don’t feel as crappy as I was feeling. Which is good, but I can’t wait for my hearing to come back fully.

Then I can stop getting annoyed at not being able to hear anything and my family can stop getting annoy with my because they have to reset the same sentence 6 times before I hear them.

How has your week been?

Nikki x

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Snow

From the first snow flake that falls I am a massive child. I just totally adore Snow. It makes everything look clean, it makes the nights so much brighter and it makes even the most hideous places look like a magical wonderland because it hide the rubbish and junk under a nice thick blanket of snow.

But most importantly I love to go out into the snow and play with my kids. I love building snowmen, doing snow angels and having snowball fights.

So this year when it we got our first lot of snow the excitement started to build as I came up with loads of ideas for myself and kids to do. Unfortunately that excitement was very short lived when the snow didn’t settle or we didn’t get enough snow. But then the weather forecasted days of snow. I thought to myself “This is going to be the snow I can play out and finally build a snow man!” I was wrong and the snow was turning to slush almost as quick as it was settling.
I was disappointed and scared that we were going to have another year with no snowmen ⛄️.
Then last night it as the snow began to fall. I was filled with the same giddy excitement I am every time it snows. Almost as bad as a child on Christmas morning, jumping and dancing around. Just itching to open they’re present.

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The fore cast was for nearly 24 hours of snow. I couldn’t believe it but I also tried my best not to get my hopes up too much in case it was wrong or it all turned to slush before I got up.

Again I was so very wrong and this morning I woke you to a magical winter wonderland in my garden that would give the movies a run for there money.

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It was beautiful. My most favourite thing about when it snows is how fresh and crisp the air smells. It is like all the pollution is sucked out of the air and its is clean. (I know it isn’t but just for a little while everything seems clean)

Sadly this morning the schools were still open. So the kids couldn’t have a snow day 😔. I was a little gutted for them because snow days are them most amazing things ever for kids, but after having a few difficult nights with both E and Baby keeping me up all night. The kids going to school was welcomed as it meant I could have an hour to do nothing while Baby napped an rest were at school.
I made up for it when I went to pick E up from nursery, by taking the sledge.

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I picked E up on here own and she loved me running through the snow as she screamed “faster” and “again”. Turn when she had enough of being pulled she took a turn at pulling her snowballs she was collecting to take home. It was one of the cutest things I have ever seen.
Once we made it home I decide that before we wet in to get warm I would give Baby her first ride on the sledge. She loved it even if E nearly pushed her out of it at the end! (I caught her before she face planted in snow)

After we had finished sledging I let Baby have her first big of contact with snow and I let her crawl around and have some freedom while E and I built a snowman.

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E loved every second of it and so did Baby. She only started getting fussy has we put the head on the snowman. The rest of the time did had sat and kick, touches and played with the snow. Soon as we got the head on I call time and said we would all take a break to get warm bad finish the snow man after. E was happy with this and we went in for lunch.

After we all had full bellies and were warm through. It was time for Baby’s nap. So while she snoozed E and I added the finishing touches to our snowman. It was still snowing, and it had already started to fill up the gap where we used the snow for the snowman.
The snow was so thick that the idea of trying to push a pram through it to do school run, was a no go. Thankfully my mum and dad were happy to walk up and collect the kids. They even picked up E and the sled to meet pick them up.

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This was great because it meant I could chill out and relax for a bit. It also meant there would be enough snow to build snowmen with the boys and A when they got home from school.
The boys were eager to start building as soon as they got home, so we got right on with it. I helped P build his, While T wanted to do his all on his own and E danced about between the two.
I was amazed at how quickly we managed to get the snowmen up. Within a matter of minutes they were built and the kids were do happy with them. T’s took a little bit longer to build but he was adamant he could do his alone.
I must say he did a good job and we actually managed to get them all built and finished in 15 minutes. The bad side to this was because we were all done and inside before A came home. So the idea of going back outside in the cold wasn’t very appealing.

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Luckily A was understanding and was happy to wait. Which also meant we had chance to let more snow settle. Just before we had our tea A and I went out into the garden and got to work with building a snowman. Again it took hardly any time at all.
By the time we had finished my garden was looking like something out of a Dr Who episode. We had 4 snowmen and if we really wanted to we could make more.

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It really was a great day and it is one of the reason I love snow. But I know not everybody does and to some a snow day is the there idea of hell.
So where do you sit, do you love snow or hate it?

Nikki x

Outside

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I love being out doors, but I also love curling up on my sofa in my PJ’s with my iPad, laptop, phone or watching TV.

But recently I have been trying my hardest to make sure I go outside and get fresh air. This is mainly because I went stir crazy over Christmas and New Year period being cooped up all time.
This being the case I have started forcing myself to go out even if it’s just for a walk by myself like going to the shop or out with kids to the park or on the school run. I have really been trying to get into the habit of going outside.
My kids have loved the change and it’s been great watching them have fun on their bikes, scooters and playing, like kids should.

My efforts have been helped along by the fact that I have joined in to the #SnapHappyBritmums challenge on Instagram for this month. Which has had a lot of outside/countryside/nature themes, so far.

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I am on Day 15 today, which is Walking. So you can see how it’s helping to motivate me to go outside.

Plus I have been try to make sure I do my 10,000 steps a day with my Noom coach app on my phone.

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I was just short on Monday which is a hit of a let down and yesterday I was out walking through day but it became too dangerous to go out and about once the snow started turning into ice.

Thankfully all the ice and snow has melted now, so I’m hoping to complete my steps today and for rest of week.

I can honestly say that I feel great for it though and I am loving being out in nature plus out of the house.

Unfortunately Baby has been struck down by a stomach bug and its probably going to spread through the family.

So please Wish me luck and I hope you all have fun getting out if the house too x

Nikki x

Teething

I was so excited on New Year’s Eve because I found out that Baby had finally started cutting her first tooth. That excitement was very short live though. Because her first tooth may have started to cut through but it’s doing it at an extremely slow rate and is causing her a whole loads of bother.

And as most of us parents know, once one tooth appears the second, third or fourth isn’t too far behind. This is turning into the case with Baby. While having a feel in her mouth I could feel the squarish shape of her first set of molars under the gum just bursting to cut through.

I hadn’t realised until recently how hard her gums had become but I can feel it now every time I nurse her. (Which is a lot at moment, as she is using it for comfort as well as a milk source)
It’s not like the change causes pain or that she even bites (YET! I keep getting told) but I can tell the difference in how she latches.

She seems to be constantly sport some lovely rosey red cheeks recently too.

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Then there is the lovely waking in the night which has started again. Last night was the worst night in a long time. She woke up ever hour or so crying and wanting to nurse. She finally settled sometime after 12am-1am. The night turned into a bit if a blur of feeds, cuddles and crying by that then so I don’t know actual time. My hubby was great by this point though and he took Baby down stairs just so I could get some rest.

I really feel for my little miss though because she is in pain. The poor little mite randomly bursting into tears throughout the day, chomping on her toys, hand and even feet. I do wish I could take it all away.

Recently though I have been thinking of looking into different teething pain relief methods such as Amber beads and ice pacts. But I just don’t want to waste money if they don’t actually work.

Also this week we have had another teething related bit of excitement as P lost his first top tooth at front.

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Here he is sporting his new gap in a gummy smile. He has been a little upset though because the tooth fairy hasn’t been able to come yet.
You see when his tooth feel out he kept playing with it afterwards and kept dropping it. So I took it off him and wrapping g it up in a nice parcel for him to leave under his pillow at bed time.
When he went to bed he chose not to listen to me and started playing with it again. He took it out of it parcel and ended up dropping it between the carpet and wall. It fell is a crack and although we can see the tooth we can’t get it out. I have told him that I will tell the tooth fairy to come soon as we are able to remove the tooth because otherwise he might try to trick out of more money.
He has seemed ok with that for now but I don’t see it working much longer, so I really hope we manage to get the tooth out of the gap or he forgets it’s there.

So that’s my week. How was yours?
And do you know any other teething remedies I could try?

Nikki x

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NEW

This week has been about everything New.

Clearly after the major Christmas present haul my kids had been given, meant that my house was full of new fandangled toys that made loads of noise or had loads of bits that come off and go missing. (Not so much fun with a baby crawling around)
So most of this week has been trying to find new places for all these new toys to live (Also not easy when the toy boxes are over flowing). But being me I found away and most of the toys have new homes now.

Also this week I have seen a new side to E. My little girl who is normally so sweet and kind has all of a sudden hit the terrible 3’s! (She was too shy and quite at 2 to really be naughty or throw tantrums)
So we have had her refusing to sleep, eat or even take her medicine at night (she has kidney reflux, you can read about it here and here).
She has started scream when she doesn’t get her way, hitting her siblings, telling us NO! And today she kicked Baby’s leg because she didn’t get her way.
This was quickly followed by me picking her up and placing her in reflection corner for a time out.

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It’s really strange because this isn’t her normal behaviour. She is normally so sweet, kind and helpful. But since she had started nursery we have slowly seen a change in her. Some were good, like her confidence had increased and she was talking to people more instead of hiding or clinging to my leg, she played with children more and participated instead of running off and playing in the corner, alone. Now thought the negatives are creeping in and if you add to them the fact she has my stubbornness, it’s not a very good mixture.
I see a lot of time outs in the future if she doesn’t learn quickly that her bad behaviour isn’t acceptable.

There have been some good new news this week too, because this week Baby has finally got her first tooth! I can not tell you how excited I was to find this out on New Year’s Eve. I have been waiting ages for this tooth to finally cut threw. Unfortunately it has meant I have had a clingy, whiney little miss stuck to me because it hurts and she is upset.

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As we all know it’s is also a new year, so I have come up with the usual resolutions. Like losing weight, spending more time with family and trying not to get as stressed out.
But I have also decided that I am going to work on a new me, making new friends, getting a new look for my blog or going self hosted and trying new things. I started by trying a new tea.

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I know I have to work on putting myself out there more and gaining more confidence, when it comes to talking to new people and brands (hopefully).
For the rest of the week the hubby and I are going to be discussing and coming up with a plan for changing the kids bedrooms round. So we can finally move Baby out of our room and in with her sisters.

So there you go that is what is New with us. How are you all?

Nikki x

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Christmas

Our word this week is of course the same as most people’s.

IT’S CHRISTMAS!

This is technically my 2nd Christmas post, as I did one on Christmas Eve detailing what we usually get up during the Christmas holiday and what we did this year 🙂

Christmas is always a great time and I look forwards to it most of the year. Although it’s not my favourite holiday (that’s 🎃Halloween👻). I do still love and enjoy taking part in all the fun things to do and sharing the day with my family.
Christmas Day is the only day I know 100% that my hubby has off work each the year because his work close for the day. I love this because I know he will always be here with us as a family.

You see growing up I didn’t often have that. My mum and dad both had jobs where if they had to work Christmas Day they couldn’t really get out it. Which always seemed to take some of the sparkle or magic away for me. All I ever wanted was a day with my family without someone having to dash off to work.
They still work in similar jobs and that’s why this year we had to have an earlier Christmas dinner because both were working Christmas night.
My sisters and I take it in turns to host Christmas dinner with for my parents and this year it was my turn 🙂
Them working doesn’t bother me as much now as it did as a kids because we work around their routines, so they can enjoy the Christmas fun which is great.

This year like every other my mum (and normally my dad) came round to see the kids open their presents.

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After the presents were open and my mum had left for work. It was still really early. The sun hadn’t even risen yet, but my kids were wide awake and full of beans. All wanting to play and open their new toys. Hubby and I sorted through the toys fixing them together, adding batteries or switching them on, before we snuck off to make breakfast and clean up.

My hubby did most of the work with breakfast while I started prepping dinner and sorting out the table.

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He then put on his mistletoe head band and Christmas jumper, while getting fully into the Christmas spirit.

A little while later once the table was set and the 3 meats (lamb, beef and Turkey) roasted in the oven with the veg, stuffing and pigs in blankets. I finished setting the table and had managed to get dressed.

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Soon enough the family had all arrived. This year I had my kids, my parents and my inlaws round for Christmas dinner. The table was set, the kids were all dressed and dinner was ready to be served.
(Unfortunately this is when the hectic ness set in and I didn’t manage to snap any nice pictures)
Dinner was beautiful though and I give myself a massive pay on the back. It was my first time doing a rack of lamb and to add the fact it was stuffed too. I was amazed I managed to get the cooking times all right.
At dinner the drinks began to flow and the rest of the night was spent talking, laughing and enjoying each other’s company.
I didn’t manage to snap this cute picture on baby and myself though 🙂

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How was your Christmas? Did you have fun?

Nikki x

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Arguments

Unfortunately this week my word is arguments.

T has hi thus peek this week and is giving us the full preteen preview of what our life is going to be like in a couple of years.
It isn’t pretty 😦

Everything we had done, said or tried has been twisted around and thrown back at us. Making us out as terrible pedants because he had fine dine thing wrong. It’s has just been at home though it’s also happened still school.
Where him doing something simple and rather minor ended up turning in a big thing. Something he could of easily of prevented if he had just listened and done as he was told. Turned into him getting a double cooler because he ignored to his teacher, walked away ignoring her and then refused to give her his planner.

He has hit rebellion city, population T!

Add that to the fact that hubby and I haven’t been in the best with each other and have been having a few harsh words or disagreements with each other, as of late and my week has been basically full of arguments.

Hubby and I have worked things out and both agreed we just needed some “US” time. So we arranged a date night and cook ourselves a nice 3 course meal with a bottle of wine. (we may have only been in our living room but the effort was there)
We took the time yo clear the air and I believe harmony has been restored in that department.

Now we just need to get through to the preteen with the chip on his shoulder.

Wish me luck!

Nikki ❤

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