Feeling deflated!Β 

For the past couple of days I have been finding it hard to be my normal, bubbly, excited and happy self. 

No matter what I try to do to perk myself up I just feel run down, unhappy and beaten by life.

It’s like this gloomy cloud that is just hanging over me and the little things that don’t bother me normally or I can usually brush off and forget about are actually starting to bother and get to me.

For example yesterday as I was watching Baby and her sister playing happily in the park together.

  

Baby was thrilled to finally be getting the chance to try something other then the swings. she was truly loving the freedom. 

As I watched them play I started thinking about how often we are going to be able to go to park now the weather is nicer and about when I use to take E when she was Baby’s age and watch her run around and climb the climbing frame and go down the slide. Then I started to think about how long it’s going to be before Baby will be able to do that.

It was then my chest started to tighten and my heart ached because I finally noticed and realised that Baby wasn’t walking yet. All of her little friends at playgroup are toddling and she has just started to master standing and a bit of cruising. 

At that moment I saw a family with a child younger then Baby and he was running in front of his parents into the park. I nearly broke down in tears right in the middle of the park because I finally starting to see her learning delays. 

I always knew it takes children with DS that little bit longer to learn new thing and they don’t just pick things up and Baby has been so amazing at learning things quickly and has been hitting all her milestones that I just never really noticed a difference between her and other children her age. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is that first realisation can as a shock. It knocked me for six and it has had me worrying and brought back a load of fears and emotions I thought I had already dealt with. 

And it has left me feeling really deflated! 

Nikki x 

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New

This week my word is New. 

Mainly because I have been having to deal with the new update in the wordpress app. The change has thrown me a like and is taking a while to get use to but I think I am getting there.

Also if you haven’t noticed over the last week I have changed all my blog design and I have tried playing with things and added new stuff. I am actually really pleased with the way my blog is looking now and pleased with myself for sitting down and doing it with out getting to overly stressed.

My other new thing is the fact that I am going to my first properly blogging event in April because I got my ticket and booked my train to the Tots100 blog camp in Birmingham. I can’t wait and I even did a *Happy Dance* today. Much to my hubby’s dismay. 

(A happy dance consits of me jumping around squealing or giggling like a school girl, while I attempt to “bust some moves”)

As it is going to be my first blog event, it’s safe to say it’s going to be a new experience for me. One I am extremely excited for but also a little nervous and anxious about because I will finally be meeting the people behind their amazing blogs, that I have only ever talked to from behind my screen. I still can’t wait though and I hope April hurrys up because I’m extremely giddy!

So yeah there you go that is my word for the week 

NEW!

What is yours?

Nikki x 

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Annoying

My week as been extremely annoying.
Not because of anything anyone has done but because I haven’t been able to hear properly for over a week now, due to a very annoying ear infection.

Soon as I lost the hearing in my right ear I knew what it was and I really didn’t want to have to go to doctors because I don’t ever have time and I’m now out of my 1 year free prescription exemption for maternity.
So I looked online and read the NHS direct website that states that an ear infection “should” clear up by its self within 3-5 days.
As always though this wasn’t the case for me and by day 4 the pain really started to take hold. Add that to the constant “pardons” I was saying as I could barely hear anything anyone was saying. I was very annoyed.

So after waiting patiently for a full 5 days I knew my ear infection wasn’t going anywhere and I would have to given in and call my doctors. Which is annoying in its self because it can take on average of a 100 calls to be able to get through to the reception and try to get an appointment on a morning.
That day was no different and once I managed to get through I was told there was no appointments left but I could get a doctor to call me later on in day.

This isn’t a very good option as I was barely able to hear to talk on the phone. I actually missed the first call from doctor because I didn’t hear my phone.

Luckily I noticed a miss called and got when I called back they agreed to have him call me again. When the doctor ring back and I was eventually able to speak to someone that was willing to listening to my symptoms properly. I was to seen at 5.30pm that evening.

You will never guess what the doctor said after she looked in my ear. Yep! You guessed it I had a middle ear infection and I would need antibiotics.

I left the doctors feeling really annoyed but I went and got my prescription and decided I would start the week course the next morning. That way I could enjoy a large glass of red wine and fall into bed. I was totally exhausted and was really really run down and exhausted.

I can now say after 2 days of taking antibiotics, my hearing hasn’t returned yet but my head doesn’t feel like it heavier on one side, my balance is returning to normal and I don’t feel as crappy as I was feeling. Which is good, but I can’t wait for my hearing to come back fully.

Then I can stop getting annoyed at not being able to hear anything and my family can stop getting annoy with my because they have to reset the same sentence 6 times before I hear them.

How has your week been?

Nikki x

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NEW

This week has been about everything New.

Clearly after the major Christmas present haul my kids had been given, meant that my house was full of new fandangled toys that made loads of noise or had loads of bits that come off and go missing. (Not so much fun with a baby crawling around)
So most of this week has been trying to find new places for all these new toys to live (Also not easy when the toy boxes are over flowing). But being me I found away and most of the toys have new homes now.

Also this week I have seen a new side to E. My little girl who is normally so sweet and kind has all of a sudden hit the terrible 3’s! (She was too shy and quite at 2 to really be naughty or throw tantrums)
So we have had her refusing to sleep, eat or even take her medicine at night (she has kidney reflux, you can read about it here and here).
She has started scream when she doesn’t get her way, hitting her siblings, telling us NO! And today she kicked Baby’s leg because she didn’t get her way.
This was quickly followed by me picking her up and placing her in reflection corner for a time out.

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It’s really strange because this isn’t her normal behaviour. She is normally so sweet, kind and helpful. But since she had started nursery we have slowly seen a change in her. Some were good, like her confidence had increased and she was talking to people more instead of hiding or clinging to my leg, she played with children more and participated instead of running off and playing in the corner, alone. Now thought the negatives are creeping in and if you add to them the fact she has my stubbornness, it’s not a very good mixture.
I see a lot of time outs in the future if she doesn’t learn quickly that her bad behaviour isn’t acceptable.

There have been some good new news this week too, because this week Baby has finally got her first tooth! I can not tell you how excited I was to find this out on New Year’s Eve. I have been waiting ages for this tooth to finally cut threw. Unfortunately it has meant I have had a clingy, whiney little miss stuck to me because it hurts and she is upset.

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As we all know it’s is also a new year, so I have come up with the usual resolutions. Like losing weight, spending more time with family and trying not to get as stressed out.
But I have also decided that I am going to work on a new me, making new friends, getting a new look for my blog or going self hosted and trying new things. I started by trying a new tea.

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I know I have to work on putting myself out there more and gaining more confidence, when it comes to talking to new people and brands (hopefully).
For the rest of the week the hubby and I are going to be discussing and coming up with a plan for changing the kids bedrooms round. So we can finally move Baby out of our room and in with her sisters.

So there you go that is what is New with us. How are you all?

Nikki x

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Binky Linky

Christmas

Our word this week is of course the same as most people’s.

IT’S CHRISTMAS!

This is technically my 2nd Christmas post, as I did one on Christmas Eve detailing what we usually get up during the Christmas holiday and what we did this year πŸ™‚

Christmas is always a great time and I look forwards to it most of the year. Although it’s not my favourite holiday (that’s πŸŽƒHalloweenπŸ‘»). I do still love and enjoy taking part in all the fun things to do and sharing the day with my family.
Christmas Day is the only day I know 100% that my hubby has off work each the year because his work close for the day. I love this because I know he will always be here with us as a family.

You see growing up I didn’t often have that. My mum and dad both had jobs where if they had to work Christmas Day they couldn’t really get out it. Which always seemed to take some of the sparkle or magic away for me. All I ever wanted was a day with my family without someone having to dash off to work.
They still work in similar jobs and that’s why this year we had to have an earlier Christmas dinner because both were working Christmas night.
My sisters and I take it in turns to host Christmas dinner with for my parents and this year it was my turn πŸ™‚
Them working doesn’t bother me as much now as it did as a kids because we work around their routines, so they can enjoy the Christmas fun which is great.

This year like every other my mum (and normally my dad) came round to see the kids open their presents.

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After the presents were open and my mum had left for work. It was still really early. The sun hadn’t even risen yet, but my kids were wide awake and full of beans. All wanting to play and open their new toys. Hubby and I sorted through the toys fixing them together, adding batteries or switching them on, before we snuck off to make breakfast and clean up.

My hubby did most of the work with breakfast while I started prepping dinner and sorting out the table.

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He then put on his mistletoe head band and Christmas jumper, while getting fully into the Christmas spirit.

A little while later once the table was set and the 3 meats (lamb, beef and Turkey) roasted in the oven with the veg, stuffing and pigs in blankets. I finished setting the table and had managed to get dressed.

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Soon enough the family had all arrived. This year I had my kids, my parents and my inlaws round for Christmas dinner. The table was set, the kids were all dressed and dinner was ready to be served.
(Unfortunately this is when the hectic ness set in and I didn’t manage to snap any nice pictures)
Dinner was beautiful though and I give myself a massive pay on the back. It was my first time doing a rack of lamb and to add the fact it was stuffed too. I was amazed I managed to get the cooking times all right.
At dinner the drinks began to flow and the rest of the night was spent talking, laughing and enjoying each other’s company.
I didn’t manage to snap this cute picture on baby and myself though πŸ™‚

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How was your Christmas? Did you have fun?

Nikki x

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Arguments

Unfortunately this week my word is arguments.

T has hi thus peek this week and is giving us the full preteen preview of what our life is going to be like in a couple of years.
It isn’t pretty 😦

Everything we had done, said or tried has been twisted around and thrown back at us. Making us out as terrible pedants because he had fine dine thing wrong. It’s has just been at home though it’s also happened still school.
Where him doing something simple and rather minor ended up turning in a big thing. Something he could of easily of prevented if he had just listened and done as he was told. Turned into him getting a double cooler because he ignored to his teacher, walked away ignoring her and then refused to give her his planner.

He has hit rebellion city, population T!

Add that to the fact that hubby and I haven’t been in the best with each other and have been having a few harsh words or disagreements with each other, as of late and my week has been basically full of arguments.

Hubby and I have worked things out and both agreed we just needed some “US” time. So we arranged a date night and cook ourselves a nice 3 course meal with a bottle of wine. (we may have only been in our living room but the effort was there)
We took the time yo clear the air and I believe harmony has been restored in that department.

Now we just need to get through to the preteen with the chip on his shoulder.

Wish me luck!

Nikki ❀

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Routine

My word for this week is routine.

I know to many this word will seem really late as school started over a month ago. But September and start of October in this house is always a super busy time and trying to put a serious routine in place. Is like trying to collect water in a shiv. It’s not going to happen no matter how hard I try.

So I have spent most of the last month running round like a headless chicken, forgetting nearly everything (including a friends son’s birthday, all plans I have made if they haven’t been put in my phone and my head most days).

Also during this chaotic time of my kids birthdays, back to school and me slowly going loopy. I cleverly decided I needed more on my plate and got my boys to join the scouts. T is in Cubs and P is in beavers.

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This is as well as P’s football training and both the boys swimming lessons. Then add E’s and Baby’s play groups, early development groups and doctors appointments. I am busy constantly.

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I have been in desperate need of a routine that I can stick to and Baby needs a nap routine that woks around all these appointments and group. So I can start getting stuff done.

Luckily I have spent my time this week sorting out some of my routine and although I had a blip with it tonight I have done well.

This is all going to be thrown if to chaos again soon though because today we got the call to say E’s date to start nursery has been move forward and is starting in November instead of January πŸ™‚ which is great because she is so ready for school πŸ™‚

But I guess setting up a routine will be a lot easier when there is just one at home through day πŸ™‚

Nikki ❀

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